high school.

i cannot think of one thing high school was used for other than forming social anxiety and awkwardness for four years that becomes completely unnecessary the second after you graduate. maybe it was only like this at my small private school but it seemed as if everything generated in high school was made to make you feel inferior, superior, angry, loved, popular, cast aside, etc. from the stress of asking/getting asked to dances, to the constant worry of if your name would be on the window for detention, or if you were on honor roll or not, or who got voted court and such. i don't know how it works at other schools, but those contests and voting schemes were supposedly for the pointing out of those best representing what that institution stood for, when all that was ever really expressed were the most superior kids getting a crown to boost their self confidence and those who did not earn their lackluster tiara could go sit in a corner at a formal dinner in a dress they shouldn't have purchased due to the break it put in their financial backbone. Aside from the dances and contests and rules, i noticed that in the private school i attended, that the uniforms were the basis of individuality, ironically. the one's that ventured out to be different would be pointed out and sometimes 'disciplined' for breaking code. screw code, screw uniformity. this is why our world is full of mess ups and craziness. because we were bound for four mind-numbing years into a tight realm of constant competition. don't let things tear you down because soon, you'll find out they mean nothing. i digress.